I search “pro ana” or “ana” tags on tumblr sometimes. I track weight loss tags. I look at these things from time to time to see how other girls losing weight are doing. I look at the pro ana or ana tags to see how the other side of this weight loss battle is going. Generally, the two don’t really cross over with eachother but every once in a while I see clearly unhealthy thinspo under the weight loss tag. Whatever, it’s tumblr. I’m not going to get upset about this. I have noticed one very clear thing…
The girls doing weight loss the healthy way (ex: eating 1200 calories a day, losing 1-4 pounds per week, doing cardio, staying healthy and full and YES, even giving into their cravings from time to time) are always so much more motivated and they are much happier. Most of these girls losing weight instantly feel better after losing even 3 pounds and can’t wait to continue and succeed at getting fit in the best way possible. Weight loss doesn’t define them, it does however, motivate them to become better in this life.
So, why is it that the girls who are pro-ana/mia let it take over their lives? Yes, they are typically thinner than the girls who are on their way to being fit: but they’re still so sad. I rarely see a post from one of these tags that equates to them being happy. Most of them are sad, spelling out their diets that derive almost no nutrients or calories for the day. They’re not running marathons, they’re not pushing forward. They’re swaying back and forth in the wind, being crushed by the scale.
For one, it makes me really sad to see how sad these girls are. For another, it makes me really intrigued. Where do these two lines cross? Where did these girls go from losing weight in a healthy way to relying on anorexia and bulimia? I guess I want to know if there is some integral difference between the two and what it is. Hm, I smell a college dissertation coming on.
I’m officially half way to my goal. I’m 14 pounds down with 14 pounds to go.
Just to clarify, I have done this by eating clean & healthy (eating mostly vegan.) That’s the key here: I have done this by EATING. I continue to eat my calories everyday, I do not deprive my body of the essential nutrients it needs every day. I simply choose to supplement it with what it really needs and keep junk food to a minimum (although, I admit that at times I do indulge my cravings, I am not perfect!) I have accomplished this by WORKING OUT by doing cardio, zumba, running, medicine ball, exercise ball and boxing. I workout 4-6 times per week. No diet pills, no under eating, and plenty of sleep!
I am so happy to have made it half way, I can’t even imagine what my body will look like after I get to my goal then start to tone up.
I’m signing up for a half marathon in February.
But when I sit in public alone and realize that more than half of every person that I see is moderately to severely overweight: it saddens me. To think, all these people have to do is start TRYING and CARING about themselves. How is your personal health not worth it?